There are Philosophers, there are Realists and then somewhere in between, there’s me. Yep, that’s me, a pragmatic philosopher, a realistic dreamer, an enigmatic rationalist, a sagacious idealist. An elementary kinda guy wrapped up in a conundrum. Oh yes, one more thing, I also enjoy using big words.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The Ending Of An Era...

“One is left with the horrible feeling now that war settles nothing; that to win a war is as disastrous as to lose one.”

Agatha Christie


“War would end if the dead could return.”

Stanley Baldwin


“Only the dead have seen the end of war.”

Plato



As unbridled levels of patriotism flood throughout the nation and as the sound of crackers clog up the air one cannot help but stop and ponder. A war that has consumed over well over one quarter of a century and a far far greater number of lives is at last over as it would seem. The death throes of a bygone era fall still as a country torn apart by a war that knew no boundaries tries at last to exist and coexist.


The war is over, indeed it is, but the conflict, the conflict still breathes. In this cruel world, the hearts of men have been hardened; the human mind has the uncanny ability and capacity to forget what should be remembered and to remember that what must be forgotten.


Jubilation sweeps through the streets at that what was won, but do we spare a moment to consider that what has been lost. The land will repair itself in time; even the wounds to the flesh can be healed, but what of the damage to the hearts and minds of the people. They do not heal so easily, they tend to stay open, they fester for longer and the cut runs deep.


We take joy in being alive but do we think of every mother’s son and every father’s daughter who is not coming home. Do we weep with the wife who has lost her husband or wipe a tear from the child who has neither hand to hold nor chest to hug on to? Do we think of the man who has lost everything and has nothing left worth living for anymore?


Now, as the guns and the bombs fall silent, now will we hear the cries, now will we hear the tears, louder and clearer than ever before. What has been lost can hardly be replaced, though it may appear that the future is rosy once more. In the midst of all the celebrations, we seem to have forgotten much and casually ignored more. The ending of a war is not enough; one needs a much thicker coat of paint to hide the scars imparted.


Now is when the mettle of a land and a people will be tested. Now is when the true strength of a nation can be assessed, now when there is no one left to blame and no where to hide. Now will see the capacity of man to forgive, to forget, to live and let live and not let the mistakes of the past become the burden of the present.


Take this time, not to rejoice, though be glad that this black era had passed. But do not blindly rush forward into a sense of veiled optimism, a clouded discernment, a darkened perception. In fact this is a time which must be proceeded into with caution. The time is at hand where old differences be put aside and not pandered to, within or without.


Terrorism is not dead, just its agents, for as long as inequalities remain, apparent or perceived it will live on. We are all created equal; we laugh, we cry, we bleed, we die; and that is all we should remember and carry forward into the new day. That should be all we need to embrace and live by if we are to make it.


Can we forgive and can we forget? Can we wipe the slate clean? Can we find the strength within to accept that old hatreds, resolved or not, be laid to rest. Or is the final legacy of the terror bringer a hemorrhaging heart, a mind that cannot forget and a spirit that can never rest? Ultimately, only time will tell. But the thing about time is that it waits for no man.


So as the new day heralds the end of an era, we wait in apprehension. As for me, I will stubbornly believe in the power of the human spirit, I will take heart in knowing that good still rests in man, even if the days are dark, I will grasp to a sliver of hope, for that is all we have and I will trust in the One who made me. I think, I think that for now, that is more than enough.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I Hope Your Heart Runs Empty - Neverending White Lights

Surreal yet real.
Sad yet happy.
Soothing yet striking.
Moving yet gentle. 
Uplifting yet sorrowful.
Bittersweet.
A truly amazing piece of music.

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If all the luck in this life has all run
If all my faith is undone, I had none
To track them down and take them back where they belong
Could that explain why I'm here, Is that the reason why I came
And why I feel this way, I feel, I feel, I feel, I came apart here

Stole a look away from you eyes
Stole a look and finally paid your price
Tethered fresh, trampled thoughts, look for me
Look at this face, everywhere there's new mistakes
And underneath it all, takes its toll, grudgingly
But with you in here, everything seems ok

If every moment could have you in it, I know where all my faith had gone
If any moment should take you away, I know I'll always have this one

If every moment could have you in it, I know where all my faith had gone
If any moment should take you away, I know I'll always have this one
This one, this one, this one

Of any moment, ever stolen, don't take this one
As my heart runs empty now I realize
What I want would never surface otherwise
I hope your heart runs empty and you realize
Hold on to this hope, hold on to this hope
Hold on to all my hope, and my faith
Cause I don't wanna leave, I don't leave from your life
Because I wanna see, that nothing is faded, that nothing could change it, 
That nothing is faded, that nothing could change it
Of any moment

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Youtube it. Download it. Threaten a friend who has it and listen to it.
However you go about it. Listen to it.
An amazing song by an amazing supergroup.

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Sunday, April 19, 2009

I hope...

People always ask me, “What’s new?” to which I always reply, “Nothing much”. That’s a lie. A lot has changed. I’m not the same man I was a year ago. Not by a long shot. But then again, most of us are continuously going through some sort of change or the other. Even if sometimes it doesn’t occur to us as being a change.


I hope I’m changing for the better.


There comes a time in every one’s life when they will be tested on the very thing that the pride themselves the most on. And every so often that pride, that blind determination fails. And we falter and we shake and we give in and we often give up. That’s a shame. It’s happened to me, a lot, and often the hardest thing is forgiving me.


I hope I never get where I can’t forgive myself.


The point is to remember that we can’t change the past. We cannot undo what has been done. All we can do, is get up, even when it hurts, even when it means facing the music, even when it feels better to sit and wallow. Get up and get on with it. It can be so difficult sometimes, just to be able to look yourself in the mirror.


I hope that day never comes.


Still, I smile, still I find a reason to face the world, and still I give myself another chance. Not because I can, not because it’s the right thing to do. But just because when all that has to be said is said and when that can be done has been done, my God is bigger than the storm. And he catches me when I fall.


I hope I can live the life I have left in honour of Him.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Tomorrow

Try as I might,
My eyes, they are strangely dim,
My ears, hear nothing but silence,
I can neither see the light of tomorrow,
Nor hear the new day call out to me.

As much as I fight,
I’m still Held back by all that surrounds,
Straining against the chains of yesterday,
The mists of the future swirl around me,
Thick and dark, beckoning, yet elusive.

Just past the night,
There’s a place called tomorrow,
Somewhere out there, I know it lies
Just of my reach and just of my sight,
Somewhere beyond my comprehension.

Should it not look bright,
Still I wait for the dawn,
Of the tomorrow that will come,
Destined to become a new today,
Fated to die another yesterday.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I Still Believe - Jeremy Camp

Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
Seems i dont know where to start
But its now i feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I dont see I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises i still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

The only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers in brokeness
I can see that this is your will for me
Help me to know you are near

Monday, January 19, 2009

Randomized 2

"There are that sort of person in the world that not only will look a gift horse in the mouth but then also proceed to comment that maybe the horse needs a better dental plan."

Monday, January 12, 2009

Some New, Some Used and Some Recycled…

I've been thinking a lot on the whole subject of why we get depressed or feel let down lately. I've always had an attitude of telling people to not let things get them down without never really having a good reason why. The phrases 'In the large scale of things', 'the big picture' and 'at the end of the day' figured a lot in my discourses. To be honest I do try very hard to not let things get me down and I have a good reason for how I manage, more often than not to indeed worry, but not let that worry keep me down in the dumps.

Subsequently, I've realized that it’s all well and good telling people 'don't worry' or 'take it easy'. But that's really quite pointless when I realized that I was just saying that but not really giving any real value addition besides that. So I decided to try and condense my basic ideals and methodology in dealing with worries into a few sentences. What I came up with follows, whether it be understood, accepted, implemented or challenged is left entirely up to you.

The easiest way to not get too down is to realize what i made myself realize. I figured that at the end of the day, everyone is human and absolutely no one is perfect. So no matter how close somebody is to you, they have the capacity and the capability of letting you down or hurting you. Be it intentionally or not. Man will fail you some time or the other whether you like it or not. So, it's best to not expect anything, any base level of behaviour or character or a basic level of respect or grace, from anybody. So thereafter all the good, all the thoughtful, all the nice that they do, to you or to those around you, is a bonus and something to be happy for and vice versa, all the bad is, at the very least, not unexpected.

This may seem a bit pessimistic or world weary, but I don't think so. I just think man has the capacity for good and for bad. All of us, regardless or race, creed or religion, have that inert ability, that free will, to choose right from wrong. Even though sometimes we may not even be able to tell the difference. So it's best to know that man can always shock you, positively or negatively. The knowledge of that will be of some help in whatever it is the future holds. This is not a perfect option, nor is it foolproof. All I can say is that it at least helps to make life more bearable sometimes.

Points to Ponder:

1. What I think of as being perfectly acceptable may be taboo to you and over the top to someone else.

2. Not everything that happens to us is for our own good.

3. Every now and then someone will come along who won't fail you, at least not deliberately.

4. You can never ever be prepared for the worst.

5. Some people just don't realize they are hurting others. So it's up to the others to do something about it, whether that may be in confrontation or just ignoring and accepting. Both will have their consequences. You have to decide which is easier to handle.

6. Life was never going to be good. Deal with it.

7. Sometimes we have to challenge our friendships.

8. A negative attitude, though making things seem easier to deal with, is in the long run, never good for you.

9. Experience is indeed a very good teacher. But someone else’s experience isn’t always the best one for you. Nor is yours the best for someone else.

10. Parent’s aren’t always right, but they aren’t always wrong either. There’s a much too positive correlation between the amount our parents are wrong about something and our age.

11. Don’t give up on love, don’t run after it either. Be patient and let it come to you.

12. We are never too old, or too smart, or too good to receive correction.

13. Trust is one of the most valuable commodities we have, be sure of whom you give it to.

14. Sometimes the hardest person for you to trust is none other than yourself.

15. Shedding tears is not a bad thing. But know whether what or whom you are shedding tears over is worth it.

16. No matter who you are, no matter what you do, no matter what you’re mental, physical or emotional strength. You can never get yourself out of all the things life flings at you all the time.

17. Laughing off problems and worries is NOT a bad thing. But never hide behind a laugh. I’ve realized that it’s ok to let other people know you have something bothering you. See point 16 for why. (Something someone very very dear to me made me realize).

18. Laugh, but only if you have some reason to do so.

19. Listen to The Sunscreen Song.

20. There’s always a bigger picture, but remember that it’s made up of many smaller ones

21. Look at the world through the eyes of a child every now and then, it helps. Immaturity however, does not. Take it from me.

22. Don’t let yourself be taken for granted, but don’t stop helping other’s either. If you want to keep helping others, remember that only 1 leper came back to say ‘thank you’. Meaning: don’t even expect something that’s as simple as a thank you.

23. Never let yourself succumb to self-pity, no matter how ‘good’ it makes you feel or how much easier it makes the hurt seem bearable.

24. Spend some time alone with your thoughts. It’ll help you achieve at a decent level of clarity.

25. Never ever sink into the ‘why me’ mentality.

26. Most of the motivational writings you find aren’t always agreeable with (this one is no exception). In the end, it’s up to you to decide what’s worthwhile absorbing.

But that's just what I think...

Oh and I know I used 'at the end of the day' somewhere above too...


Thursday, January 8, 2009

Are You with me?

A song i happen to like a lot, frankly, the lyrics are altogether too appropriate given all the madness and mayhem that's going on in this blue and green place we call home...

Are You With Me? - Color

So you're out there on the street
Shedding your second skin
You can't help but to repeat
Running the rat race on the road to ruin
Secrets kept quiet
For reasons not too bright
They always seem to let the
Catastrophe out of the bag

Every antic ups the ante
Lend a helping hand
Things are getting desperate and its
time to take a stand
Are you with me?
Are you with me?

Times are changing
At the blink of an eye
I don't know what the day will bring
But I'm glad to be alive

Every antic ups the ante
Lend a helping hand
Things are getting desperate and its
time to take a stand
Are you with me?
Are you with me?

This will be our year
We just need a remedy
Like a substituted Savior
Who wants somebody
To need somebody
To love somebody
again

When TV's the place of worship
The wheels are put in motion
We're all on a sinking ship
setting sail into the ocean

Every antic ups the ante
Lend a helping hand
Things are getting desperate and its
time to take a stand
Are you with me?
Are you with me?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Thoughts on the passing of another year…

And so we pass on into another new year, the last one flying by too quickly for comfort. Somehow or the other, I feel that 2008 definitely went by a lot faster than the previous years. But still, one thing that I have to say for the year, all things considered, it wasn’t a bad one. In fact it ended incredibly well. During the course of the year, many things have happened, some good, some bad, some too close to call. Looking back, it’s easy to think that the bad overshadow the good. And that’s something we as humans are altogether too good at doing. But looking again, I’ve come to realize that in fact, deciding the difference between the good and the bad comes down to a matter of where your priorities lie, where your heart is and what you truly hold important in your life. It really can be that simple, it really can be that easy and it really can be that straightforward.

In the last few days of the year that is just gone, I began to realize where my priorities lay, what truly was important to me and what didn’t need to have an effect on me. I began to see that what I used to hold dear to me where just things, things that would rust, or break, or leave. I began to see that the human side of things which I’d been blocking out for so long. And so, as the days ticked by to the close of the year, my gaze shifted from those things that were always there for me, despite just being things, inanimate objects. I’ve come to see that what mattered most to me and what I’d look forward to coming back to after a bad day were things that couldn’t possibly do anything back for me. The single largest change in my life this year has been the change that led me to realize what a waste it was to place my trust in something that could never place its trust back in me.

Something I always felt I never got and a main reason why I used to be so detached from the world, was that I felt I never really got any respect. It’s always something that used to gnaw at me. That feeling that you get when you do and do but never really get any recognition, no matter the size. It’s taken a while to realize and accept but I’ve learn't that it’s not about what you do, nor about what you get for what you do. It’s simply about why you do it. So I’m stopping the mentality where I feel that I deserve something in return for anything that I do. I’ll do it because I want to do it, or I won’t do it because I don’t want to do it. Simple and easy. Everything that happens beyond that is a bonus. The only recognition i guess I need is that of a job done well. This isn’t to be honest the easiest thing in the world do, but I am implementing it, slowly but surely. I’m just glad, that there IS somewhere that I do get respect from even though I don’t need it. I don’t need it simply because I know its there anyway. In fact, I get a whole lot more than respect but that’s another story.

So yes, the year is over, I’m several days into the new one. This year came on me without any fuss or revelry or celebration. I went into it quietly, without bother or thought. It just was day, then night, then day again. The only thing that really changed is that I have to remember to write 2009 instead if 2008. I don’t know what the future holds for me. This year hasn’t got off to the best of starts in many ways. Ways I’ll not go into now. But still, I’m happy I reorganized my priorities. Because given what’s happened it would have been so so easy to get bogged down, especially seeing as its still less than one week into the New Year. All that’s happened so far has, I’ll admit to an extent worried me, but the simple difference being that now I can see that despite being worrying I don’t need to put my life on hold or get depressed about them anymore. What’s truly important to me now stares me in the face every so often. Some new, very new and very very high up on the ‘Means the most to me list’ and some old, been there all along which needed a bit of dusting off.

It really IS all about the people you love, the family you have, the friends you keep, the memories you cherish and the life you live.

Love as I’ve realized is something you take a massive risk, no not risk, chance on but one which has a fan incredibly amazing outcome, so long as its taken for all the right reasons. But it’s a matter of loving for love and loving for the sake that you actually got a chance at love or something like it. And therein lays all the difference. Love is the thing that holds everything together, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, daughters, sons and lovers. All love, all different types, but still heartfelt love, plain and simple.

Family is so very important in this world. People who fall out with their family loose so so much and as I see it, family is something you should never ever let slip away from you. Your family is all you’ve got in this world and you need family. No matter how much we feel we can break out on our own, we can never be happy inside if we don’t keep our family close by.

Friends are something we all need, something I have a lot of but always felt lacking at the same time. Having good friends is something that is of incredibly importance in life and it’s worth it to fight to keep the friendship burning. Then I see that keeping friends is about compromise, sacrifice and love yet again. It’s about knowing what’s important to keep and what should just be forgotten.

Memories, Ah, they are a tricky one. I said memories, not good or bad, simply because sometimes it’s not a bad idea to remember the bad memories and not the good ones. The point is to not dwell on the bad memories but to use them to propel you forward. The good memories can sometimes cause more trouble than their worth, simply because you can find yourself all too easily getting sucked into the ‘I wish it was like that time’ mentality. So both the good and the bad memories are important to us. It’s just a matter of why we decided to remember them.

But it all comes down to the life we lead, the way we go about what we do that counts. It’s not easy and none of us are by far perfect. But that doesn’t mean we can’t try to work towards perfection. Even though we can never achieve it…at least not while we’re no this earth. Like it goes, Aim for the stars and you get the moon and the earth thrown in should you fall short. Aim for the earth and if you fall short you get nothing. Study to get a 100; should you fall short, you still pass. Study to pass and if you fall short you fail. Same concept. It’s interesting to note that the better we try to live our lives, the harder it is to do so. Every time we try to do things right something happens to test that. Way I see it is that that is the test right there. How we pass is entirely up to us. Do we tell that lie, knowing it will save our skin, or do we tell the truth and face the consequences? Do we curl up and hide at the slightest sign of problems or do we dare to face them? Run away and live to fight another day? I think I’ll at least try with all I have to do what’s right. So that when the day is done, no body can say I didn’t try my best, least of all myself.

I fear that I’m going on and on about things we hear every so often from all over the place. Maybe I’m being overly preachy, or just going on about things we love to talk about but never can never really get around to doing. But, to me this is not just another load of motivational, semi-inspirational, quasi-emotional mumbo-jumbo. But that’s just me, so feel free to call all this the terms I’ve already provided in the line above and more if you feel like it. But I think I’m going to give it a shot, I might as well really. I’m going this way once, at least I’m going to try to make the whole thing seem worth it. Regardless of when, where, how or why it ends…

And that’s it, the year ahead stretches before me, it’s not going to be easy, it’s not going to be hard. It’s just going to be another year. I can’t see the future, so technically I can’t really be ready for anything. All I can do is expect to nothing but be at the very least prepared to face up to anything that comes my way. What more really can I do? But I can’t do it on my own, no matter how much I think I can. And for that I’m glad I have my God, my family and my friends…

…I thing I’m going to experience life and not just live it…

...at the very least I'm damn well going to give my best shot...

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

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